Asking a girl out
and being terrified that they’ll say yes
God help me if anyone I know reads my tumblr is all I can say
It’s strange…
I go month’s being perfectly happy…. month’s without getting with anyone… …months without wanting to get with anyone… and then I find a girl… a girl I like.. and suddenly I become miserable and confused and jealous… shouldn’t it be the opposite? I don’t know what to think…
Stream of Conciousness 28-01-2012
I have, of late, undergone some sort of mental transformation. I see the world and it’s individuals in an entirely different way. I am filled with a huge sense of empathy towards complete strangers I pass on the street, wondering to myself what their story is, what they worry about, what their dreams are. Similarly I have developed what has almost become an obsession with transience and in particular the transience of beauty. In the eyes of the elderly woman I see a glimpse of her former youth and beauty, a time I imagine she looks back on with great fondness and longing. I see these elderly people on the bus, shuffling along, living in a world that has passed them out. One which is not entirely their own. A world which is drastically different from the one they have grown up with. In the same way I see girls my own age, with their painted faces and their abundance of energy and think to myself that in a certain amount of years this youthful beauty and life will have slipped from their grasp. Of course the same is true for men also but it just so happens that they tend to age better than women do, and so this transformation is not as obvious.
When you are trying to make friends with someone but you know they’re only trying to be polite by conversing with you and don’t actually care
I kind of just use this as my own personal diary more than anything else really
